I feel like doubting Thomas gets a bad rep. He was one of Jesus’ 12 disciples and yeah the only one who said out loud, what probably everyone was thinking at some point.
Sometimes it’s hard to be the only one in the room to doubt. And it’s a lot harder to say it out loud - it can feel like some kind of betrayal. But doubt is not the same as betrayal. It’s not a dirty word and it doesn’t have to mean everything has to get ripped down and rebuilt (though sometimes it does). Here are the lyrics to Call me Thomas
Call me Thomas
By Tina Boonstra and Barnabas Shaw
Don’t call me Mary call me Thomas
Sometimes I struggle to believe
all of the good things that you promised
Even when you’re right here with me
Still I know, my heart it tells me so
keep on seeking,
So I go, again to find that road
keep on seeking, keep on seeking
Don’t call me Mary call me Thomas
I need more time to work it out
I fear I’m not the one you wanted
You’re just too good to walk out now
Still I hope, my heart it tells me so
Keep on seeking,
So I go, again to find that road
Keep on seeking, keep on seeking,
I knew you once, and I’ll know you again
If I could feel your scars, with my own two hands
Is that too much to ask? I know it’s more than you said
Is that too much to ask, from my dear, dear friend?
Don’t call me Mary call me Thomas
My guess is you already know
You never were afraid of honest
But now we’re here, where do we go?
I still hope, cause oh, what do I know?
Keep on seeking
So I go, again to find that road
Keep on seeking, keep on seeking
You still call my name like nothing’s changed, like nothing’s changed, like nothing’s changed
You call my name like nothing’s changed, like nothing’s changed, like nothing’s changed, like nothing’s changed.