Have you ever tried to start again? Sometimes you know you have to, sometimes you don’t have a choice. Sometimes we do things to try and get better and it’s hard cause you don’t know if it is gonna get better. But you know you have to try.
This is a song about the aftermath of hitting the self-destruct button. And trying to figure out a way to stop self-sabotaging.
Can people ever really change?
By Tina Boonstra
I moved into a new part of the city
There’s a park right down the street
Every Monday night I go swimming
I like to think that it might wash me clean
I got a new job back in February
The people there seem nice I think
If you saw me now, you wouldn’t recognise me
I check the mirror and I smile at the scene
and then I’m driving in my car, I turn the music up
I tell myself I’m not lonely
I just wonder where you are,
Do you ever think of me?
Can people ever really change? I think about it everyday.
If I tell you that I’m trying isn’t that the same?
If I tell you that I’m trying isn’t that the same?
When you left our house for the last time
All the tables and the chairs kept asking me why
I would screw up the one good thing in my life
And I knew, I knew they were right
So I gave them all away to the Red Cross
And I slept on a mattress for six months
But when the walls started painting me pictures you
I finally found someone I could talk to
There’s no way back to the start,
Do you ever think of me?
I hurt you. And when I did it I knew what I was doing.
I hurt you. And when I did it I knew what I was doing.
You saw it. Way before I did, you knew and saw it coming
I don’t know how you stayed for so long, I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.