This is a song about getting lost and found all over again. It’s about letting go of old ways of thinking without really knowing how it’s going to turn out, but mainly it’s a song about grace.
Grace in the letting go, grace in the awkward not-knowing and unlearning of harmful thinking and grace in the re-discovering, the starting over all over again.
Circle back, start again
by Tina Boonstra and Barnabas Shaw
I was doing better doing fine, going outside
Feeling futures in full colour for the first time
I was happy to be alive
Taking every minute in my stride,
Now I find I’m not alright with what’s been changing, when I did try
What I needed to see was true, was just a picture I made of you
Where do we go from here? Can we just take it slow?
Will you be by my side, when I don’t know?
Where do we go from here? Can we just take our time?
If you’ll be by my side then I’ll be fine
Try to keep my head, like I do, like I want to
But I’m splitting at the seams and I need you
Help me, what is it gonna take, to find a place in your home again?
But the tears won’t stop, the tears won’t stop, the tears won’t stop falling will they?
The tears won’t stop, the tears won’t stop, the tears won’t stop falling will they?
Now I’m up ripping up the route, trace my steps, turning back again
The high road I riding was a dead end
I don’t know if I have the strength, you circle back and we start again.